Today marks the day a year ago that I entered the workforce. I just read my old post and realized how much I have grown and learned and actually, on some level, stayed the same. A lot can definitely happen in a year and I’m really happy to have accomplished such a feat…surviving my first year in the real world.
Honestly, I am not where I imagined I would be when I graduated. It was so easy to dream then when the world was mine for the taking. Alas, the real world (or is it the conscience?) hinders us from our wants with responsibilities, duties, and money (I hate you money). Starting off as a receptionist was an experience I’ll never forget. It really proves that a smile goes a long way and that with patience, good things will come to you. I was never good at either as I started off shy and was so impatient to move on up. But with hard work, it eventually happened. I actually miss being a receptionist. It’s more social than my business analyst position, and definitely easier. I don’t know how to analyze programs or anything technical. I hope I learn it soon before I become complacent or give up. I like being involved with people and not things I understand. Despite that, I am very grateful for my position. I am increasing my skills set and I feel more important and needed in a level that is not “I need some sugar, can you go get some?”.
So I say the word PSEUDO because there are a lot of factors in my life that are still controlled by my parents, mainly my mother. It’s frustrating but I am learning to deal with it. What keeps me sane is that I know it is not forever and I’m young. In any case, you do whatever you can to keep your family happy. Though it sounds morbid for me to keep my happiness behind my parents, you do what you gotta do. It’s not forever. It’s not forever.
What do I hope to have achieved a year from now? Many things such as living in my own apartment, paying my own bills, no longer supporting my parents, figured out school/taken the GRE, and just an overall increased feeling in independence and confidence. I also would have liked to have mastered some kind of skill…improve my photog skills or maybe improve my website making skills (and that hopefully my new site will be awesome) or become a baking/cooking fiend. OH, I also would like to travel to another place I’ve never been to.
I guess at this point it’s not really about where you picture yourself but what you do about time. Seize the day, good timing, it’s all real. To have been this far just shows me what I am capable of with little fervor (since I was definitely scared/alone, new, and inexperienced). I know I can definitely do more in the upcoming year as I have the motivation and lots more confidence in my myself and my surroundings.
Bottom line: I survived. I look forward to another reflection next year ^_^.
