so lately i haven’t really been posting words, more so pictures from other sources.  so here’s an update on life and thoughts.  ready?

so Life…nothing much is really going on.  i’m still working at the same place but i’ve been in training in crystal city for the third week.  ironically i was open to change since work at fairfax was getting quite dull.  it’s nice to taste something different once in a while.  after this training is over, i’m back at fairfax with occasional visits to crystal city.  with all this training and growing within the job, i started to think of where it will lead me.  call center?  i don’t want to head that way.  not to be arrogant but i am definitely better than that.  a couple weeks ago, an email from a dear friend was asking if i was interested in a job in uva.  i quickly jumped at the opportunity!  it was kinda amazing how fast i jumped too…i didn’t think i’d get up and do something so fast.  i usually think things through but for this one, i pretty much jumped the gun thinking it would give me a better chance among the rest.  this job is a uva job to be an admissions counselor.  it seems like a job where you learn as you go, travel around states to recruit hs students to apply to THE university.  i felt like this is the change i needed, a change that can actually challenge me, and a change that would lead me in the right career direction.  i’m too excited.  i wish i wasn’t because i haven’t even gotten an interview yet.  it’s all i think about these days…getting this job (which is definitely good since before this i was just thinking of how boyfriendless i am haha).  please pray for me.  there are so many benefits once i get this uva job that i would never complain (maybe ha).  man.  this would be the best birthday present ever.

speaking of birthdays, mine is coming up soon.  i’m not particularly excited about it.  i think it’s cuz people i’d want to celebrate it with aren’t here.  =.  in any case, i still do want to celebrate it somehow so if you have any ideas, holler.  right now, i’m thinking of dancing at adams morgan.

oh yea, i rearranged my room.  there’s only one bed now.  it’s a good change but it feels weird.  i’m glad to finally have my own room for a change.  i like sharing, mind you, but i’ve never had my own room.  i’ve always shared with the sister and since gone to college, i took it upon myself to change the room as it should be.  i need to decorate it now hehe.

so i thought i’d move out by now, but here i am, with a room of my own, still in springfield.  i had made a deal to stay if the parental units gave me a later curfew and my own room.  so far, they’re upholding their end of the bargain and i am as well.  but honestly, the only way to have made me stay here is major guilt tripS.  yes, more than one.  it sucks to feel all this weight on my shoulders when i know other people out there are just out for themselves, doing what they want without any worry besides taking care of themselves.  it’s not that i don’t want to take care of my family, it’s just it’s so much so soon.  i wanted to have been able to spread my wings, discover myself, find what i like OUT somewhere.  instead, i’m here, home and i feel like i’m not moving forward.  i’m more so standing still, watching everyone pass me.  if i get this uva job, i won’t feel like this anymore.  i’d actually be headed somewhere where i want to go.  again people, pray for me.

other thoughts…hmm.  well i’ve been watching this filipino drama and i got really stunned by how much one will give up just to do the right thing.  he can’t love the girl he loves because 1. she’s with his twin 2. feels like he owes his twin his life because his twin gave him life by giving his kidney to him.  i mean obvi, this isn’t real but just the mere thought of giving up one’s happiness affected me.  at what point is it time to make yourself happy?  and in the end, is it all worth it?

i think i’ve thunk too much cuz i don’t have anything else to say.

til next time…